I got my teeth cleaned today.
My semi-annual cleaning was originally scheduled in March 2020 – just as the pandemic lockdowns were beginning.
Even once the dentist’s office was allowed to reopen, going felt risky, so I rescheduled for June – thinking we would be past the danger by that time.
We were not.
So, I rescheduled for August…then again for November…then again for January…then again for today.
Fully vaccinated, I kept the appointment.
I was a bit nervous.
I’m still not comfortable going into enclosed spaces where lots of people come and go.
Per protocol, I let them know by phone I had arrived, waiting in my car until they came to get me.
I wore a mask, except for the actual period of teeth-cleaning.
I paid by credit card and left the building.
Surprisingly, after such a long delay and despite working from home all year – within a few feet of our kitchen with its all-day snack accessibility – I did not have any new cavities.
A relief…because if there had been new cavities, that would have meant additional trips to the dentist.
As it stands, I won’t need to return until early November.
I still do not feel comfortable venturing out much.
I have been fully vaccinated, but a majority of people out in public have not.
Some state openly they don’t ever plan to be.
And some of those same people are aggressively antagonistic toward the idea of mask-wearing…which is the bare-minimum of decent care for others around you.
We are still learning whether those of us who are vaccinated might still end up becoming infected by those who spurn vaccines and mask-wearing, thereby unknowingly carrying the virus to others and unintentionally causing harm.
It does not feel safe “out there” yet.
This search for “safe” is not just about our own safety – but also the safety of those around us.
It will be this way for the foreseeable future.
So, I will continue to weigh the risks, take precautions, and decide on a case-by-case basis when I will reengage and when I will reenter public places.
I will continue to do this so when I reenter spaces with my loved ones, I will feel as confident as possible that I will not be bringing danger into their lives.